When my husband and I spoke about this as an option I was Ok with it, and for the most part I still am. HOWEVER. There is a certain disquiet creeping in at the pit of my stomach. Especially as it looks like this may happen sooner than later.
I keep switching between panic mode and excitement. Panic because this is will be the third life changing decision I make and excited because we've just finished big building a house which we initially thought was for our later years and I really can't wait to play house.
But yes, panic is setting in and my lists are getting ever longer. My country's in my marrow. In all its beauty and ugliness. How will I leave it for an indefinite period if we decide to stay? Can I really be consoled by the knowledge that I am still moving to a country within Africa, where nature lives?
Such questions keep playing ping pong ball in my head. All the time....to what end I don't know?
To those of you who have or ever had to leave home for a while and those who relocated permanently, what words of wisdom do you have for me?
Today while driving I was listening to one of my favourite Nigerian musicians, Agbaso. I don't understand any of the words that I sing along to but the music is such fun I can't help but get swept away. I can't wait to uncover this country with all its fun loving people.
You see? I am of two minds. :(
PS! Don't watch the video, its rather silly. Just listen.
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