Happy Thanksgiving to All

Wow, there are so many things to be thankful for today. People tend to focus on the negative in life alot and tend to overlook the smaller things that we have to be thankful for. This is a true holiday for people to humble themselves. We all should stop for a brief moment and really think- What are we really thankful for?
Hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving- Enjoy the day with family, friends and for most, football too. LOL Here are just some cute thoughts for Thanksgiving Day

You can tell you ate too much for Thanksgiving when you have to let your bathrobe out

Have a great day!

Marriage Preparation Classes

Hi everyone.
Sorry, I haven't been on for a week or so.  Been crazy busy.  With the start back of school, doing my partylite business and just basically living everyday life  LOL
So now on day 3 of marriage preparation classes.  This has been a huge help to me. As you know from my previous posts., I have been struggling with this whole marriage thing and my fear of life long committment.  I would so recommend these pre cana classes to anyone
I was dreading them before I went.  (Taking the wrong mental approach and viewing this as another chore)
I just learned so much from it.  It was awesome.
Will post more later tonight
Off to final day of class

Maryland Crabs are the BEST- Good week this week

A very good week for me so far.  Everything going on an emotionally good level.  My insomnia issues even seem to be getting better somewhat.  I think this self help journey is helping me.  I haven't had any wine at all this week   LOL.  Not that I have ever been an alcoholic but there have been quite a few times that I have drank wine to help me calm down or sleep.  I am feeling good.  I have enjoyed my time this week.  Although I have been somewhat busy building my partylite business  (I am enjoying doing that also)  These home shows are fun. We play games, I meet new people and make money for just having a party.  It's pretty cool.  There is NO Stress  (Unlike my full time job that will probably end me up in the nutty bin if I don't get out of there  :-(
Me, my daughter, my fiance and my co-worker and her husband went out for crabs tonight.  They were so good and had the best seasoning so that was a nice little get together
I made money in the stock market  (so that made me happy)  
Spent alot of good time with my daughter (that makes me happy)

I don't just want to post about my bad days  :-(   As this is my journal of  my journey

Inspirational quote for the day  
Thank God every morning when you get up that you have something to do which must be done  :-)
Busier people don't have time to be unhappy    That is what I am learning.  

Sometimes I feel like I am a bit bipolar

The harder I try, the harder it seems to be to keep a live where I am keeping my inner peace.  I know this sounds crazy but I want that happy feeling.  I don't want medication but I struggle with it.  I still feel anxious alot.  I feel OK but not great, not sad most days but I want to get past just feeling OK. 
I just want to tell someone my phobias and they tell me how to fix them and make the go away  :-(
Somedays, I feel so good but other days, I just want to come home at night and drink more wine than I should than feel like crap the next day.  This is what I want to run away from.  I want to feel even.  I want to actually enjoy the stuff  I am doing and get away from the negative office I work in.  I know I can but I think it all boils back to fear and the need of security  :-(


As the marriage is coming closer also, I am feeling more anxious.  I think that is my whole dreaded fear of being committed or abandoned. 

Oh- What a day- Everyday is a journey

My life--  Wow, sometimes I feel like it could be one big reality TV show.  The only difference, it is real, I'm not rich and not getting paid for sharing it  LOL  (again, this is my free therapy)
This is my journey, my real journey in self help.  Everyday can seem like a real challenge. 
There is an old saying "somedays, you eat the bear and somedays, the bear eats you"  The damn bear got me today 
I wake up this morning  (that's a good thing)  I get ready for work and take my daughter to my mom's for the day.  My mom was off today so she babysat.  I go to get in my car from my mom's and the car wont start  (battery died)  so I borrow my mom's car.   On the way to work, I accidentally hit the seat heat on in her car and have no idea how to turn it off.  Riding to work for 22 minutes with the seat making my butt sweat.  (note:  It is summer where I live and has been very hot)  so I get to work and my dress slacks are literally wet on my backside because of the heated seat  (which is leather)
Than I go into the negative office I work in (which if you read my previous blog posts) than you know that I work in a negative office where you have 40 and 50 year old adults throwing temper tantrums and are constant pessimists and I had to get every customer today that took nasty pills  (Seriously, is it necessary to be so nasty to people).  I get yelled at for their real estate taxes increasing  (Note:  We are the mortgage company, I just want to scream  "call your congressman, call your county)  8 hours at that office felt like 20. 
So needless to say, I came home in bad mood   (frowns)
Than, I subbed on my step dads bowling team tonight.  I haven't bowled in a few months.  Didn't bowl too bad   172, 169, 189.  OK  Average 177 (so not bad) but I got a good laugh.  The team was doing bad and there is a little elderly gentleman that bowled on the team and he would get so mad everytime he got an open that he would curse and slap his ears.  I could do nothing but laugh  (not where he could hear me though haha)  I was scared that he might come slap my ears too  LOl

but at least, I laughed.  :-)

With all the stress today (plus I have gained a few pounds since I quit smoking 3 1/2 months ago)  I can feel it in my clothes, I was feeling a bit sorry for myself today.  :-(
Even though, my life is good right now compared to so many others out there

Everyday is a mental journey to me.  I often feel people take advantage of my niceness.  I really need to work on the healthy selfishness bit.

I am feeling a bit stressed tonight.  My mom hasn't been in good health recently  (If you read my previous posts than you know about the cancer and her past life)  She is such a great person.  I am taking her to get an endoscopy tomorrow.  Keep her in your prayers for me.

I have had too much loss in my life and my mom is truly the wind beneath my wings.  She has survived a hard life but is yet one of the sweetest, kindest people you can meet.

I hope all is OK.  She has lost like 40 pounds in 6 months.  She is looking frail.  She has had alot of tests done recently and nothing is coming back wrong.  Hopefully, the endoscopy shows us something.  I feel something is not right and very worried. 

Cross your fingers for me



Somedays are good, somedays are bad but in all honesty, nobody really wants to hear about my hardships.  Only when I am joking and laughing.  That is why I love writing on this blog.  I can just talk. Nobody has to read it but I feel I talked about it and it helps me.  It is the diary of my life  (kind of like the diary of a madman)  only I am female

Smiles-  Good Nite All

If you really knew me

Wow, I am watching this show right now on MTV called If you really knew me. I think this is the season premiere of it.  It is so powerful in words.
"If you really knew me"  What a powerful quote that is

For a bunch of great inspirational quotes, visit the home page of the blog
Here is the link

or if you just feel like laughing tonight, check out my blog with funny facebook jokes Here is the link

Inspiration from Facebook

I love facebook.  I am like a total facebook addict.  I have reconnected with so many people from high school etc and I read so many funny things on there and inspirational also  :-)  Saw this quote tonight and I liked it. 

There comes a time in life when you walk away from all the pointless drama and people who create it, and surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus on the good. Life is too short to be anything but happy.

Manic Monday!!! New scam to be on alert for

Oh my, Monday's can be such a downer sometimes.  (especially when you go into an office that half the staff are pessimists)  I keep telling myself that I will be out of this 9 to 5 rut soon!!!  Hard Work, Hard Work

After work was nice, my daughter and I went to get a manicure and pedicure.  We enjoy that and it is some quality time together

Didn't go jogging today because it was just too darn hot out.  Hard to go jogging in almost 100 degree weather.  I guess I could have done some exercise in the house but reality (no excuses LOL)  I was just too damn lazy tonight.   That negative office I work in can drain me mentally sometimes.  (actually, the whole mortgage business can be downright draining sometimes).

On another note, here is my inspiration for today that I want to share with you 

"If it's to be, It is up to me"
Take 100% accountability for where your life happens to land at this moment. Don't be a victim, be a victor!

Also, a scam for all female drivers to be on alert for   (Here is an email forward that I received today"


Subject: New scary warning for women driving alone

;Ladies please take note of the following gang initiation tactic, >please discuss with female colleagues who do not have email

BE ALERT: Wayne County Sheriff's Department - VERY IMPORTANT FOR >WOMEN TO READ .

On the way to Canton , driving on Michigan Avenue , on Thursday >morning, I saw an infant car seat on the side of the road with a >blanket draped over it. I did not stop, even though I had all kinds >of thoughts running through my head. But when I got to my >destination, I called the Canton PD and they were going to check it >out. This is what I was told...

"Several things to be aware of .. gangs and thieves, are now >plotting different ways to get a person to "stop" their vehicle.

"There is a gang initiation reported by the local police department >that gangs are placing a car seat by the road...with a fake baby in..waiting for a woman, of course, to stop and check on the baby.
Note that the location of this car seat will usually be beside a wooded or grassy (field) area ...and the person - woman - will be dragged into the woods- beaten and raped- usually left for dead. DO NOT STOP . DIAL 9-1-1 AND REPORT WHAT YOU SAW.


"IF YOU ARE DRIVING AT NIGHT AND EGGS ARE THROWN AT YOUR WINDSHIELD. DO NOT OPERATE THE WIPER AND DO NOT SPRAY ANY WATER BECAUSE EGGS >MIXED WITH WATER BECOME MILKY AND BLOCK YOUR VISION UP TO 92.5% YOU >ARE THEN FORCED TO STOP BESIDE THE ROAD AND BECOME A VICTIM OF &THIEVES. THIS IS A NEW TECHNIQUE USED BY GANGS. PLEASE INFORM YOUR ;FRIENDS AND RELATIVES. THESE ARE DESPERATE TIMES AND THESE UNSAVORY INDIVIDUALS WILL TAKE DESPERATE MEASURES TO GET WHAT THEY WANT."


Please talk to your loved ones about this. This is a new tactic used >and I would hate for anyone to fall victim to this kind of crime.

Please be safe


Happy Monday to all

Joy of Summertime and watching children play

My daughter has a friend sleeping over tonight. It is one of her best girlfriends from school. They haven't seen each other in like a month so the talking and giggling is nonstop (LOL- Instant headache) They have been swimming all night. We ordered some pizzas and getting ready to settle in for a movie shortly.

Nothing brings me more joy than seeing huge smiles on my daughter's face.

This is my motivation for the day. Watching my baby enjoy her childhood and making good memories.

Have a great weekend   (My daughter and her bff night swimming)    So much fun!!!!!