the life of an 89 year old

OK so I am stuggling terribly tonight. My 89 year old boss (who has been like a grandmother/mentor to me) finds out today that she has colon cancer. She has surgery tomorrow and may or may not make it through. I'm devestated. I can't imagine my life without her. She has been my biggest mentor in life ever. I can't go into detail with that right now because I am so upset and typing this through tears.. Just pray for her with me tomorrow. She can't leave me yet. She has made me s damn strong and is the strongest, toughest woman I know. She is my role model I just can't lose her :-((((((